No No No! This couldn’t be happening. I blinked harder trying to clear my vision, it had to be someone else right? I looked again. Even with all my hopeful wishing it didn’t change the fact that it was indeed Melon who was now seated only feet away, wrapped in the arms of someone who wasn’t…wasn’t me! I felt my heart crumble. Berry, I was such a fool!
Once Haze had noticed we were standing at the door, he made his way over to us, blissfully unaware of the complete and utter tragedy occurring right behind his back.
“Oh hey you guys made it!”
“Hi.” I managed to mutter.
“Well make yourselves at home. There are drinks in the kitchen if you want. Help yourself.”
“Oh thanks, but I don’t drink and Olivine doesn’t either.”
“No prob, they are there for everyone!”
Haze moved in a little closer to Penny and his mood totally changed.
“Hey I kinda needed to talk to you about something. Can we go for a walk?”
Ughh this was not happening. Penny looked at me for an approval, I rolled my eyes and waved her on. “Go, have fun, I will find something to do…”
With that Penny and Haze were gone. Bleh…
Worst night ever. I am not sure if it was the fact that he was sucking face with another girl, or because he was totally ignoring my existence. It didn’t really matter, I was crushed, angry and ready scream at the top of my lungs. I pushed through a crowd of people and took refuge in the bathroom.
What was I supposed to do? I had no where to go, and I refused to stay in the bathroom all night. Then a voice ran through my head…”Theres drinks in the kitchen feel free.” Now Penny was right, I didn’t drink and I knew I wasn’t supposed to, but I was so out of sorts, that it felt like my only way to escape the nightmare I currently had found myself immersed in.
I pressed my shoulders back and gracefully made my way to the kitchen, doing everything in my power to ignore the two figures on the far couch. I successfully made it to my desired destination and when I got there I found glasses of all colors sitting around. I studied them carefully, and finally decided on one of the green fizzy numbers closest the fridge. This should do it. I lifted the glass to my lips and took a sip. Yum!! It was just as tasty as it looked.
With each sip, Melon and his tart were slipping further and further away.
Ok so I may have had one too many. Things started to get a little…spinny? A voice I didn’t quite recognize located on the floor no less, caught me by surprise.
“Oh my. Someone is not having a good night.”
I spun around to locate the sound of the voice (a little to fast I might add) and found a girl sitting with Tiber on the linoleum.
“Ya you. We just watched you throw back four of those things. You should sit down, they are gonna hit you soon and its probably not going to be pretty.”
At the time I had no idea what she meant, but sitting down felt like a good idea. I crossed my legs and thunked to the floor. Not as graceful as I pictured it in my mind.
The girl introduced herself as Patina and then also semi introduced me to her boyfriend Apple, who was sitting on the couch just opposite the slime ball and his floozy.
“And this is Tiber.”
“Ya. We have met before.”
“Oh good. So whats the matter darlin? You look like someone just ran over your kitty?”
Normally I would have shrugged it off as no big deal, but probably due to the juice, I spilled it all.
“I thought Melon and I would have a chance at something. I thought he liked me. It seemed like he liked me, but now he is over there with that girl and I feel like a total idiot. Why would I ever think that a hot guy like that would want me?” Oh no, I could hear the words spewing from my mouth, with no way to stop them. Deep seeded insecurites and childhood worries started to surface whether I wanted them to or not. I bit my bottom lip trying to keep me from saying any more.
“Girl you are way more pretty than she is! Isn’t she pretty T?”
Beautiful? The word danced in my head. He thinks I am beautiful? I don’t think I had ever heard a boy call me beautiful before ever. I felt my cheeks blush. I giggled and looked down at my feet. “Awww thanks.” All three of us were quiet after that, I suddenly felt completely awkward sitting on the floor. I steadied myself to my feet and went to grab another drink, but my body had other plans.
The very second I was upright, gravity tried with all its might to pull me back down again. I threw my hand out frantically to keep myself from tipping over.
“Whoa cow girl! You better ease that horse back down.” Patina called out.
“I don’t feel so good…” *mrrphh*
“Oh boy, Tin we better get her outside. I think she needs some fresh air.”
Patina took one look at me and then quickly they were both escorting me outside on to the patio.
We stepped out into the cool morning air and the crisp jolt brought me back to reality with a vengeance. All those things I had been trying to avoid came crashing down at once. I couldn’t contain it this time and doubled over and started to cry. Stupid girl! Stupid boy! Stupid heart! Why was everything so stupid!
“Oh Livvy please don’t cry. It’s OK. He’s not worth it, I promise… T stay with her, I am gonna go get some water.”
I was so mortified. Bawling my eyes out like a huge baby, in front of someone I hardly knew.
“I’m sorry. I am not sure why I just did that.”
“It’s fine. Sometimes its best to get it out.”
“Ya, but I shouldn’t have just unloaded like that. I’m sorry. Its like a tad over dramatic for the situation.”
“Its not just you.”
“He’s a major player. Its like one girl after another.”
Wasn’t exactly what I was wanting to hear honestly. I was just a play thing in his game. My shoulders sunk forward and I felt two firm hands grab hold.
“There is nothing wrong with you. He is just an idiot. Believe me I know. I live with him. You deserve way better.”
By the time Patina returned with the water, the sun was already starting to creep up over the horizon. I couldn’t believe we had been up all night long. I was so unbelievably tired. Tiber offered his bed and I accepted with out any hesitation. We went to his room, which happened to be in the same room as Melon. Thankfully Melon had gone home with his girl and was no where to be found. That is when it hit me.
“I didn’t even notice your bed in here before.”
“Huh? Oh ya. Yup this is mine.”
“So where did you sleep that night?”
“On the couch.”
“The couch? Oh man, I’m sorry.”
“Nah its fine! I just wanted you to be comfortable.”
“Well thank you.”
I pulled him into a hug. I was pretty use to this huggin thing by now.
“You are really sweet.”
I kissed him on the cheek and then he wished me a good sleep. Couldn’t really wish me a goodnight since it was almost 6 am. hah!
So for the second time I fell asleep in that room… two total different experiences.
Two total different gentleman.