“If we take a shortcut through the park, we can get there faster.”
“How is that any faster?” I snapped. Ughhh, everything that came out of my mouth was laced with venom. I couldn’t help it. He just made me so angry, but it wasn’t like I enjoyed. It wasn’t fun hating some one to the point it was slowly transforming me into a total different person. In fact it was wearing me down more and more. So many nights I collapsed into bed from exhaustion, all to do with his nonsense. Unfortunately remembering that only set me off again. It was like a vicious cycle I couldn’t escape from.
So I kept going. Snapping and spitting and being just royally nasty. I could only take so much, and since my usual way to deal with it was attacking him, I realized I had never properly and verbally expressed my discontent. So beleive me when I say I was surprised when he turned away from me in the heat of my rant.
“Lil please. I don’t want to fight with you.”
“Don’t call me Lil!”
*Sigh* Waterlily…Can we please go home.”
Oh but there was no stopping me. I had opened a can of worms and they were continuing to spew out.
“Is there something I missed? Like way back when? Was there a sign on my back that said ‘Pick on me’? No? I didn’t think so! So what was your deal! Why me! All the time! I swear what did I ever d-”
The moment I realized what was happening, I pushed away from him. “What do you think you are doing?!?!?!” I screeched.
“I’m sorry. I… well I…”
“Have you completely gone insane?! What is the matter with you!?”
“No. Lil- I mean Waterlily, there is something you need to know.”
I wiped my lips with my sleeve. What in Berry’s name just happened? How dare he have the audacity to pull such a stunt. “Another trick? You think this is funny? You are just sick. You know that?!”
“I don’t even know what your game is, but I have had enough!”
“Would you just listen to me for one second. Please?”
“No!” I started to walk away but he grabbed my arm. I stopped but pulled away from him forcefully. “Don’t…. What?” I seethed adjusting my sweater sleeve from the struggle.
“It was me OK.”
“What was you? What are you talking about?”
“The gifts. They were from me.”
Suddenly my whole world came crashing down around me. My beautiful fairytale romance suddenly exploded in a firestorm of despair. In one brief second, he was successfully able to ruin everything yet again. “You’re lying.”
“I’m not. I swear.”
Nothing would come out. I stood there dumbfounded. Finally I was able to muster one word. “Why?”
“Because! I like you and I’m stupid OK?! I use to pick on you because I liked you, but then…then I didn’t know how else to act around you. At least you paid attention to me that way, but after Prom and the stupid things I said. I felt bad, worse than I ever have in my whole life. It’s like I have all these great things I want to say to you, but when ever I got around you…I just… I DON’T KNOW OK?!
I couldn’t beleive what I was hearing. The world was spinning out of control, I just knew at any given moment I was about to topple over.
“So I started sending you the gifts. It gave me a chance to say what I wanted to say and make you smile at the same time. Once I saw how happy they made you, I kept sending them. Everything I said in those cards is true. Everything…”
“NO! No no no no no no no!!!!!!”
“Lil I’m sorry. So sorry for everything. Please.”
I felt his hand touch my back and my whole body stiffened.
“Don’t touch me!”
“How can you! This is…I just don’t beleive this!!! You and Sapph! You love Sapph! Not me!”
“That’s something else. I do love Sapph. As a friend, she is my best friend, but I don’t like her like that. I lo-”
“WHOOOOOOA hold on a second. So you don’t wanna be with Sapph but you are still goin out with her? What kind of monster are you? How can you lead someone on like that?! Especially your supposed best friend! You are a piece of work.”
“It’s not like that! You know how she is!”
“I’m not sure what you were expecting from this revelation of yours, but it’s not happening. You are a jerk and you have been my whole life, and no amount of little trinkets will ever make up for the agony you put me through all these years!”
“Lil please? Just let me explain. Give me have a chance to show you how sorry I am. Please?!”
“I am leaving and don’t you dare try to follow me!?”
I started running for home, the adrenaline pumped through my veins. I had never been so angry in my life!
This wasn’t happening. I held onto the door for support, the world was still spinning and on top of it, I felt like was going to throw up. I pounded the door with my fist, but then pulled away quickly, it was much louder than I thought it would be. I wanted to rip the mirror off the wall and throw it at him. As angry as I was, I did my best to stay quiet. I didn’t want to wake anyone, especially Sapph. Then another thought it me…It’s like no one even noticed how long it took me to get home. That made me feel real loved.
Then the moment I feared most finally took over. That moment anger turns to hurt. Sadness overwhelmed me and I started to cry, no sound ever came out, but tears rolled down my cheeks in waves. Why would he be so mean if he liked me! My mind could not comprehend it! That’s not how it works! You like someone, you do nice things. I felt so betrayed. My fantasy friend was my sworn enemy. NO NO NO NO!!!
I went to my room. There stood all the gifts. Their meaning was totally different now. I felt the tears wanting to yet again tug at the corner of my eyes. All this time, I thought it was someone. Someone special, but instead it was the same old jerk out to destroy my last shred of happiness. I picked one of the vases, completely prepared to throw it across the room…
But then I saw Sapph’s sleeping form and I set it back down. A wave of an entirely new emotion washed over me. Guilt. Guilty why? I had no clue. I didn’t do anything. Still just knowing the fact he was leading her on and that he loved (yes I knew exactly what he was going to say when I cut him off) me just made me feel 10 times worse. I hated how much power he had over me.
Why?! Why me?!
The next morning the remodeling project began. We were yet again assigned our duties and then sent off to work on them. Prelude and I were given the living room.
“Ok Lil and Prelude you guys are gonna start in here. First take the down wallpaper and then add a coat of the primer. From there we will see how it goes.”
I knew she was talking to me, but I couldn’t comprehend a word of it. I felt like a total space cadet.
“Uhhh Earth to Lil. Come in Lil.”
“Did you hear a word I just said?”
Prelude stepped up beside me and locked his arm in mine. “Yup Wallpaper down, primer up. We got it.”
Once the wallpaper was down, which let me tell you was not easy…We started on the primer. It seemed to be just what I needed to get my mind off of things. Before long I was rocking out to the music and had completely forgotten about…well you know.
Later that afternoon we started on step 3 and 4 of our project. Stenciling. Ya Sapph wasn’t about to make it easy on us. I think that was the most complicated stencil I had ever seen. It didn’t take me long though to see why she had picked it. It looked amazing.
Almost as amazing as the whole room looked once we had finished.
So later that night, once we had finished for the day, we all washed up and prepared for the rest of our evening. Due to the previous nights activities I had called Pompador and postponed our date. I didn’t exactly cancel, but I sure was in no mood to go that night. Sapph on the other hand was ready to go on yet another date with Disco. I watched as she floated through the hall way and out the door.
“I’ll be home later. Don’t wait up.”
Our new furniture had yet to arrive, so the four of us sat around on the freshly laid carpet for a little TV time. Midna and Coronation were practically one being from the moment he came to stay with us, but unlike Sapph and Disco it was actually cute, and they both seemed to genuinely like each other. Which in recent light was a plus.
I don’t think she was gone 10 minutes before she came running back in the door. Tears streaming down her face. We all jumped to our feet to attend to her.
“Sapph what happened? Are you OK? Whats wrong?”
“Oh Prelude!!! WAHHHHHHHHHH!”
“Shh shhh it’s ok. Shhhhh. What happened?”
“He Broke up with me!!!!!!!!”
Please tell me this was not happening…