“Ok ok! hehehe. Umm lets see… Its Tues March 14 at about uhhhhh 9:30 am, and this is day…what day is it love?”
“This is day fourteen of trying teach our little pumpkin to walk. I have the camera today, because we are pretty sure this is the big day!”
“Ok Sweetie! You ready? Come to Daddy?”
“OH Oh oh!!! She did it! Do you see that folks! She did it!!”
“I did daddeeee!”
“You sure did sweet pea! Look. Look over here. Say Hi Mommy!”
“Hi angel! Can you say, I’m a big girl now?”
“I’m a beeeeg gurrrl!”
“Yay! Very good!”
After sitting down to watch some old home movies of my grandmothers, I quickly realized I was not ready for it. The moment I saw my Great grandmother and Great grandfather come on the screen, I totally lost. I was trying to keep it together for grandmothers sake, but I was a little less than successful.
Poor Grandmother was having just as hard of time. She wiped a tear from her and sniffed. “Why did we want to do this again?”
I laughed weakly at her attempt to lighten the mood. “Well I think we thought it would help. Its not is it?”
Even though we both desperately wanted to flip it off we kept on watching.
We had just returned home from Great Grandfather Pummys funeral. The most excruciating experience of my little life, and I had been through a lot by that point. It was a chilly Saturday morning. Family and firends and some people I didn’t even recognize came to show their respects. We knew it would happen one day, but even knowing we were not prepared when it finally came to pass.
“Thank you all so much for coming. I know Dad would be so glad to see you all here together in one place. I am supposed to say a few words on his behalf, and when they asked me to do so, I had to laugh. A few? I could go on forever, but for everyone else’s sake i will do my best to keep it brief. What can I say about my Father? He was the most amazing and and loving man I had ever known. My mother use to say, he was the tether that kept her grounded to this world. I guess it is a good thing she was able to go before him. I am not sure how she would have ever handled all of this without him. He, just like the rest of us have seen our share of heartache, but Dad always did his best to stay positive and more than once helped to keep us on the right path. He saved many lives along the way, on the job and off, and I just want to take this time now to tell him, Dad I love you and will miss you so very much.”
It was so touching, there was barely a dry eye in the whole place. At that point, I was still keeping it together, but Emerald pulling on my arm was making things increasingly harder.
After Grandma has finished, she came over to us, her head still low, grief written all over her face.
“It was beautiful Grandma.”
She never said a word, she just collapsed into my arms and started to sob heavily. I did my best to comfort her, but we were all hurting and nothing we could say or do was going to fix it.
We laid apricot colored roses before his headstone and paid our last respects.
I couldn’t hold back any longer, not that I really needed to. He was very dear to my heart and I swear it didn’t hurt half as bad when Great Grandmother had died, and I loved her just as much. I cupped my face in my hands and the let tears take care of the rest. R.I.P. Grampy Pummy, you will be missed more than you will ever know.
“Can you come here a second please? I need you to hold a camera!”
“K. In a second.”
“Hello there sexy.”
“Well hello there.”
“Just had to come over here and tell you something.”
“Ughhh MOM!! Really?!?”
“Just a second!”
“I love you.”
“I love you too baby, Best Friend Forever Through and Through…”